Tuesday, December 27, 2005


My mom and I always hit the day after Christmas sales. So we were in CVS scrounging for wrapping paper. I see this older man who is singing Christmas carols in the store and give him a smile. He says to me "hello teenager. How are you doing today teenager?"

Teenager! It has been awhile since I've been called a teenager by anyone since I'm 25. It was probably just a case of bad eyesight but I'd like to believe it is that my anti-aging eye cream is working and I now have the skin of a teenager. :)


I had a wonderful Christmas. Since I have a rather small family and most of the family I do have lives far away it was just my mom, dad, brother and I. My fiance spent some time with us but mostly spent the day with his family.

It was really nice just to be able to spend time with my family and I realized this was probably one of the last time it would just be the four of us at holidays or on vacations. So it was really nice.

My dad got us all a trip to NYC so I leave tomorrow! Which has the added bonus of my only day having to work in the apartment this week is today!!!

Thursday, December 22, 2005


Well, I had my interview for the public defender's office today. The 1st in a 3 step hiring process (who knew it had to be so serious!!).

I'm not sure how I think it went. When I left I had a really good feeling about it but now I'm not so sure. I was thinking over my answers to questions and I wish I had said other things or added something else. Plus the 2 women were giving me some smiles and headnods which I found encouraging but the guy did nothing at all. Oh well...it is over now.

I guess in about a week I'll find out if I scored high enough to move on the 2nd step. So I will be stalking the mail until that point!!

Tuesday, December 20, 2005

Feeling Good

At work today someone made the comment "you could buy a 30 dollar Timex or a 3,000 dollar Rolex. But you just feel better about yourself wearing the Rolex."

This comment, made in absolute seriousness, got me thinking. I think that statement is a sad reflection on our society. Why should a material thing like a watch, a purse or even jeans make someone feel better about themselves? I think that is just wrong. I think people should feel good about themselves for being a good person. And feeling good about yourself shouldn't be derived from spending money on expensive things and status symbols. I'm not saying that people shouldn't spend money on themselves. On the contrary, I think everyone should do nice things for themselves. I just don't think that you should feel better about yourself if you are wearing a Rolex than if you were wearing a Timex.

I think as a society we have become so obsessed with material possession that some people have started to derive their self-esteem and self-worth by wearing Joes Jeans. I worry about these individuals because how would they feel about themselves if something happened and they wouldn't be able to afford the expensive name-brand items. Since I believe that these people look down on others who aren't wearing status symbols on their wrists, what would they do if they no longer had the status symbol?

I think people should feel good about themselves because of what they are doing with their lives and what kind of people they are. People should feel better about themselves for helping others not what they are wearing. People should find self-esteem in the positive and meaningful relationship they have.

I dunno...enough of my soapbox. I just found the comment a disturbing insight into how other people think. Maybe I'm alone on that one though.

Monday, December 19, 2005

Me in a nutshell

2005 has been a big year for me. I graduated from law school in May, took the MD bar exam, passed and as of last Thursday am officially a lawyer. I also got engaged 2 weeks ago!

The only thing I need now is some permanent employment. I was lured to law school by propaganda of $2,000 a week summer jobs and $100,000 starting salary upon graduation. I'm completely ok with never being rich. Since I want more than anything to be a public defender and would kill myself if I sold my soul to a big firm. The part I have a problem with was they omitted the part of the story where I would be temping in an apartment. Yes an apartment and not at a lawyers rate!

I did get promoted (to be lowest paid person in the apartment). With this promotion came the prestige of moving from working in the bedroom to now working in the living room.

I do have an interview with the Maryland PD's office on Thursday. So I'm keeping my fingers-crossed that my document coding days are numbered.